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Monday, March 30, 2009

Needing you

Day by Day I see you pass by with that sad look in your eyes..I wonder if that look was meant for me..I can only guess what you're really feeling inside of you..Are you sad that we can never be those two people again or that I can never be yours? Is our fate really that screwed up now? Whose fault was it that we broke up? I still need you by my side everyday of my life...You're a part of my world now..I know I screwed up the last couple of times we were together but I swear I never told...They guessed it...Just cos it's us...We can never keep anything to ourselves if they saw us together...You have to choose between me or her...If you choose her over me, I'll disappear for good..You'll never hear from me again..The changes in me right is because of what I feel for you...

Friday, March 27, 2009

This is for you Baby!

The times I spent with you are the most amazing times in my life..You make me happy when I'm down..You're always there when I needed you most...You make me smile just by looking at me...Why can't we ever get back to the way we were before? I miss the times when you just call to hear my voice and so do I...I wanna if you still have those feelings for me..My feelings towards you will always be the same..I will always love you even if I have to die for you...

Thursday, March 26, 2009

confession to you

It's actually happening...I actually believe you because of your best friend...He told me that it was finally over between you and her...I wanna feel happy but I can't, you're 8 months too late...Though I'm not yours to have, I'll always be in your heart as you were my first true love and the best friend I ever had..Don't ever leave me or change who you are..My heart would always belong to you no matter what happens between us...I don't care if I belong to someone else or so do you..Life without you might suck when I go off to college...I wish I could take you with me as we talked about yesterday but I can't...I'll come back for you as long as you still feel that I still belong in your life...Don't hesitate to tell me what you feel...I'm not as insensitive as people say I am..I feel all the love that I felt for you these past few years seems to grow fonder..I don't think I can live without you in my life anymore..You're the biggest part of my entire being...

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

The love I feel for you

You told me that you still love me. I still love you though I don't show it..I wish you can read my mind then you would know what I feel towards you. Memories of our time together still burns in my mind. I wanna try to believe you this time but the odds are against us. The more I try to believe you the more I feel like it's all a lie..How could I trust you again if I feel so insecure about you? Help me trust you again...

Goodbye but not Farewell

Saying goodbye feels like you're dying. Only less than two months and we're all separating ways. It hurts me to know that after all these years, we're finally parting ways. I'm gonna miss you all but it's another phase in our lives. It's part of growing up.
College is another great experience. New friends, Different classes and Different teachers. I won't forget all the things that we all been through.

This is for Sowmith, Jucy, Ihsanah, Ramya and Hiran...
We've been through rough times and you guys have always been there for me..I'll miss you guys so much..The advice and the harsh criticisms(Sowcow) helped me move forward. You guys have inspired me to be the best that I can be. What would I do without you guys always having my back? I'll never forget all the help you gave me...

I'll miss the whole Form 5...
I know I'm not the best person to be friends with and i regret being mean and hurtful...I'm sorry for that..I wish I could take it all back..Forgive me all of you..

emotionally confused

Passing by you in school is hard. Seeing you with someone else is worse. I wanna tell you how I feel but I just can't. You broke my heart before and the wounds have just healed. I don't wanna open up the wounds again. It's hard enough to just say hi to you but being in your presence hurts. I'm just gonna keep my feelings to myself, it's better this way. I wonder if I can finally own up to my feelings.
You came up to me during Halloween, just to give me a kiss but that made everything worse. The feelings I have for you erupted like a volcano. Why do all the good things come to an end? Now I'm fighting with your girlfriend not for your feelings but for the sheer fun of it. Rumours get out of hand sometimes and that's hard to deal with.
I can't handle it. Just leave me be. I'm not your girl anymore. What happened between us during Halloween was a total mistake.Let's forget about it. Don't ever bring it up again. It's no use. We can never be those people again. I don't feel that way about you anymore. Forgive me for the hurt I've caused you. You'll always be the one who made me believe in myself. You're my inspiration and the guy I would always care about. Take care of yourself as I move on and live my life without you for the first time. Don't keep staying behind me ready to catch me in case I fall. I can take of myself. Now you have to take care of yourself.

Friday, March 13, 2009

my satisfaction

i did it...after a torture of 10 months...i finally got over you...i finally happy without you by my side...you chose her over me...i could have given you the world but your lust overtook your love for me...i know she was pretty but did she give you that i never could have???? enlighten me please cos I'm still confused...i still wonder what ever happen to your promises of forever and always....

my pain and sufferings

the pain i felt when he and i broke up was excruciating....to be deceived and embarrassed in front of my friends was punishment enough but to flaunt his new relationship in my face was pushing the limits...as time flew by, the pain slowly disappeared but my scars were still there but not that visible as before...i tried moving on but it was a little hard to moved pass this heartbreak....my friends helped me day by day to get through it all....i slowly started to heal...i knew i can get through this....